Trigger finger

"Trigger finger, also known as stenosing tenosynovitis is a condition in which one of your fingers gets stuck in a bent position. Your finger may straighten with a snap — like a trigger being pulled and released."

At first, it feels like a funny moment for me. Whenever i get a firm grasp of my fist, my ring finger will get stuck and i will show them funnily to my little sis. Time by time, it worsen. I mean by worsen is the finger never came straight again except if i release it with my other hand. So I make my way to the physiotherapy.

1) Pesakit luar

When you deal with a government hospital, you have to see the doctor first before she can refer you to the physio session. There is a procedure, we cannot simply go and demand an 'i need a physio therapy'. 

2) Physiotherapy appointment

My first therapy session was on 4th july on 2pm. I arrived a little bit late because that is my resignation date as a temporary kindergarten teacher and the process are more complicated than i thought. It is a blessing to find out that i am the only current patient so the physiotherapist can really take his time to explain and observe me.

3) Q & A with the physiotherapist

There is so many question occupies my head but I like it how my physiotherapist explained words by words, showing pictures and diagram like he really care bout his patient. There it goes:-

What is actually happening to me? 

: Trigger finger

Why this happen? 

: Overworked, so the tendon got irritated and produce scarring. The scar eventually becomes nodules that slow down the flexes of finger. 

When does it start?

: Few months before, one of my hand got cramped most likely coz i overworked on the paddy field. We still do it manually by chopping down paddy using 'gogorib' or sabit in our mother tongue. So i think, that is the starting point which trigger the inflammation of my ring finger. It takes several months to develop a stuck on my finger which i barely realize. 

How to get it better?

: He ask me to do a simple massage on the root of ring finger to get rid of the nodule bumps. 2 minutes of soft massage on the affected area by following the direction (below to upwards). Then using the other hand, pull and held my ring finger backwards in 20 sec of time. This simple massage can be done while watching tv but I often failed to do. (hmm..) If the finger didn't get better in 2 months, there will be two options which is injection or surgery.

a) Injection

The physiotherapist are straightforward on the long term effects of this option. He said that it only reduce the symptoms of trigger finger but overall it doesn't cure. Symptoms may be back few months or years later. He prefer me to go for a surgery.

b) Surgery

"Sakit lagi tu orang bersunat" dia bilang. Adoii. Seems easy kunun. But i think he said that so i won't be panic and doesn't stressed out. He seems really good at reading people's facial expression. Only one suture will be needed after surgery he said.

4) Ulrasound

He then does an ultrasound on my triggered finger by rubbing a gel on my palm and place the ultrasound rode over a circular motion. This is to help reduce the bump using the waves produced by the ultrasound. (begitu la lebi kurang. inda tau mo eksplain panzang2. yg siaa tau, ultrasound mo tinguk baby sija).

5) Next appointment session

Will be on 25th of july. Please help me pray for a speed recovery so I don't have to undergo surgery. 

With love,

Lays Liau

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Throwback. A birthday shout out to teacher Elsey. MGBU ;-)

Admiration, Adoration or Devotion?

"An idol is an image or other material object representing a deity to which religious worship is addressed or any person or thing regarded with admiration, adoration or devotion"- Wiki.

Haiiii. Salam Ramadhan, dan selamat bertugas kembali. Hehe, Bercakap pasal idola, sy yakin semua ada sekurang-kurangnya 1 atau lebih individu yang beri kesan dalam diri. Tidak kisahlah ahli agama, politik, entertainer dll. And mine is so random. Wanna know why? ;-)

1) Michell Phan

I really love her. At first saya cuma tau dia ni make-up demonstrator yang banyak publish tutorial video pasal mekap di Youtube. Saya minat betul dengar suara dia ni. Tenang saja dia cakap. Cuba tutup mata pastu dengar dia bercakap through earphone, i thought angels must be talking exactly like her. Video dia pun tidak terhad pasal mekap. Try google 'how to de-stress' or try 'girls guide to starting over' by her. Her perspective bring out new atmosphere. Bait-bait kata yang dia guna pun always rhymes and brilliant. Dapat rasa yang dia ni memang beauty with brain dan dalam masa yang sama boleh persuade orang yang follow video dia. Sy mengaku saya download kebanyakan video dia pi lappy. Bila saya rasa down, saya cari tu folder video dia. It feels great how an unseen person can do so much to uplift your mood. I adore her as an idol. Thank you Michell Phan for igniting my spirit and for inspiring me to be creative. I like to think her as my virtual motivator. Goodluck beautiful dreamer.

2) Jayesslee

Janice and Sonia, twins yang sy rasa so much alike. First sy tau durang ni dari adik sy. Dia cakap "best oo ni, cuba dengar suara harmoni durang". Time tu kalau tidak silap, durang buat cover lagu I Won't Give Up by Jason Marz. Start dari sana, sy develop tu admiration. Asal ada cover baru, tida missed tu mo pi dingar. Tp memang betul oo. Time durang nyanyi tu lagu, can feel the chemistry between them and they sang it like they really meant it. Yang paling best skali, sy tida ble kasi beza sapa yang nyanyi suara 1 and whose sang the second voicing. Sangat misteri bagi sy sampai sy stare their lips tym durang tengah duet harmoni on MV. Dan yang terbaru, sy baru tau nama duo durang Jayesslee tu sebenarnya membawa maksud 'Jay' untuk J (janice), 'Ess' untuk S (sonia) dan 'Lee' tu surname durang. Adehh.. setelah sekian lama, mystery solved. Hehe. Janice and Sonia are both married and each both have a son of same age. Jauh sangat sy stalk durang ni especially video yang dimuatkan dalam andymetsonia. I watched their very episode. STALKER! By the way, Thank you Jayesslee for teaching  me how to live a 'life', and promote true value of sisterhood.

3) Blog Goddeshobbies

This one are the most random of all. Sy x tau pa macam sy ble terjumpa this awesome and family oriented blog. Apa yang sy tau, i love how Val as a wife and a mother of four handle her family with care, growing vege, home canning foods, and home schooling her own kids. Sy slalu percaya home are a better place to stay. And i'm gonna make it real someday. :-) Thank you Val for reminding me of organic life and for the idea of 'there is always a reason to smile every second of life' (kids, dogs, or even a tiny little sprout of vege that grew at the backyard).

Thank you for inspiring me. Xoxo. :-*

Dnars Review-Set Jerawat

"Real people, real life, real stories"- Lite FM.

Hai. Lama tiaa muncul kan, baru skg datang balik ni. Mulanya, saja2 Blogwalking tengok testimoni orang pasal K Colly Sweet 17. Kira mau beli baa tapi ngam la mo survey2 dlu. Baca apa2 yang patut kan. Buka Google and mula men-search review and testimoni produk. Dari sana tau macam2. Dari cara mengenal produk ori bukan ori, side effect, keberkesanan produk etc. Satu pengajaran pada diri sendiri, sebelum beli produk, baca dulu review and testimoni PENGGUNA sebenar dan bukannya si PENJUAL. 

Pigi la mana2 outlet kecantikan even penjual online pun claim barang tu bagus. Tapi di akhir nanti, apa2 kesan sama ada baik atau buruk, si pengguna yang akan rasa dan tanggung. Terdetik di hati mo buat own testimony pasal Dnars Set Jerawat. Jerawat ni memang dah sebati betul. Since 2003, datang dan pergi. Tapi tahun 2014 kemuncaknya sampai camera 360 dan beauty plus pun tida dapat cover. Cakap serius ni. Sedih sangat bila ingat balik. Sampailah nampak kawan jadi putih and parut dia pun hilang. Rupanya dia pakai Dnars. 

KEKUATAN

1) Cerah- Seawal seminggu boleh rasa dah muka lembut. 3 weeks after, org mula tegur ada seri. ;-)

2) Jimat- Beli benda ni dekat outlet Sp dapat lebih kurang RM50. Lepas pakai magic day cream, no need to buy foundation or compact powder. Cream ni bertahan dekat 2 bulan bergantung kadar pemakaian.

3) Multipurpose- Sabun beras tu bukan setakat muka, guna sabunkan badan pun ok. Tapi jgn selalu, takut keringkan kulit. 

KELEMAHAN

1) Moon Cream- Benda ni kalau pakai teratur tahan dalam sebulan gitu. Tapi saya ngaku banyak skip part ni. Sebab asal bangun pagi, rasa cam ada lekat di tekak. First tu ingatkan mungkin krim tu mencair tepi mulut. Tapi next usage pun sama. Takut juga. Mana tau kandungan dia kuat (beracun). So, pakai kadang2 ja.

2) No Ingredients Details- Hmm. Ni yang paling terkilan sekali. Kenapa aah HR Dnars tidak pamer kandungan produk? (bersangka baik)

3) Kulit Menipis-  Rasa benda ni especially kulit bawah mata. Ke atau normal sebab makin tua? hmm

4) Kulit Berminyak- Pakai ni kulit still berminyak. Hari2 kena pastikan oil control film ada dalam purse.

5) Tak Berkesan ke atas jerawat degil- Bila dah putih, jerawat makin nampak. 3 bulan penggunaan Dnars, jerawat masi timbul tak segan silu. Hari ni hilang, esok datang lagi tempat yang sama. Pipi pun naik kembang. So setiap malam guna T3 Clindamycin Lotion sebelum tido (coz i skipped moon cream) and the result are pretty well. 

Rumusan: Gabungan Dnars Set Jerawat, T3 Clindamycin Lotion and Oil Control Film bantu reduce acne and bring back confidence. Skg masuk bulan ke-8 pakai produk ni. So far okay jugak just benda ni lebih tertumpu di muka. Nak sihat & cerah 1 badan sebenarnya. :-P Sekadar perkongsian jujur, ikhlas dan saya TIDAK menjual produk. Sekian. :-)

Towards Self Care

Meniti peningkatan usia, banyak peristiwa yang kita lalui. Yang mungkin menjadi suatu kepuasan atau menambah luka di hati. Terutamanya kini kita tersedar, dunia perlu berkomuniti. Indahnya zaman kanak-kanak bukan? Tiada apa yang perlu mereka fikirkan. Tapi jalan perlu ke depan, bukan mengundur. Hakikinya, kita yang 'dewasa' kini tidak lagi boleh berfikir "kau hal kau, saya hal saya".

Hidup berkomuniti punya pasal, adakalanya kita terlupa menjaga hati sendiri. 

Pada tahun baru ni, awal-awal lagi saya berazam untuk lebih berani mengatakan "tidak" untuk benda yang membuatkan saya tidak selesa atau kurang bersetuju (rujuk no.7). It means that selama ini, saya sangat timid, takut betul melukai hati orang, pura-pura "ok" padahal dalam hati _____ (rujuk no.3). Jauh benar mahu bertalam muka tapi gara-gara mau menjaga hati orang, kita pendam perasaan yang akhirnya membuat kita stress sendiri. (rujuk no.9 dan no10). Tanpa pengetahuan 'orang' tersebut, kita simpan amarah kita. Kita mula benci orang itu sebab dia tidak pernah sedar yang dia sedang melukai kita. Tidakkah terserlah kebodohan kita di situ? 'Mereka' tidak akan tahu selagi kita tidak berterus terang.

Pagi tadi, dengan tidak semena-mena saya ter-marah seorang junior atas ______ (ada la tu). Sebab saya set dalam minda untuk mempraktikkan no7 dan no2. Secara spontan keluar dari mulut, bait-bait kata yang menunjukkan saya marah atas tindakan dia. Pertama kalinya dalam hampir 5 tahun di IPG, I directly said  my thought tanpa berselindung. Lepas cakap, I leave. Dalam hati puas sebab saya berjaya menyatakan perasaan sebenar. 

Tapi lepas kejadian tu, ada something yang rasa tidak syiok dalam hati. Bukan sebab saya takut dia marah, atau tersinggung. Tapi automatik dalam hati "no, this isn't it". Bukan kelegaan yang saya rasai tapi macam menambah titik hitam dalam hati (rujuk no11). Kenapa saya mesti marah. Kenapa tidak cakap baik-baik yang saya tidak suka kan? (rujuk no1). Ya. betul. Tapi semua berlaku pantas, dan perahu sudah pun terlajak. 

Dalam masa 1 jam perhimpunan itu berlangsung, saya ambil masa untuk reflect balik. Sempat lagi ber-monolog. "Leslie, tahniah kau berani sudah berterus terang. Tapi sekarang kau ada musuh sudah. Are u ok with that?". Lama juga lah saya fikir. Dan saya buat keputusan, saya perlu minta maaf dengan orang tu (rujuk no12). Saya kasi positif hati saya, yang dia memang tidak sengaja. Sehabisnya assembly, saya terus hulur tangan and say sorry. Dia sambut tangan saya and said "kak, i'm so sorry". Wow.. macam ada kuasa Tuhan tau. Penuh sukacita beii. Saya punya marah trus hilang. Haha.

"Tiada kebetulan, semuanya terjadi atas rencana Tuhan"-Pn RCH 2015.

P/S : Kita perlu menjaga hati sendiri sejajar dengan hati orang lain juga. ;-)

Final Year 2015 !

Tic Toc Tic Toc. Cepatnya masa itu berlalu meninggalkan kita. Sedar tidak sedar, masa menginjak satu lagi tahun kedepannya and its my final year for my PISMP degree prasekolah. Teruja, gelisah, takut.. begitu banyaknya emosi yang terbuku dalam menghadapi dua lagi semester sebelum mengakhiri pengajian di bumi IPG Kampus Sultan Abdul Halim ini. Yang pastinya, tahun ini pasti gempak dengan hilai tawa, tangis rajuk, manja memanja yang terakhir bersama teman seperjuangan. Akan ku pastikan itu sebelum mengangkat kaki melangkah pergi.

Terima kasih untuk cuti yang sangat bermakna buat kami. Berehat bersama keluarga, bercanda dengan sahabat kampung dan orang yang tersayang. Walaupun sementara, ia pastinya menjadi satu doa supaya kami lebih kuat menghadapi hari baru.

Azam baru untuk Bunga Keningau, i'll write more often after this. Izinkan saya menggunakan bahasa rojak versi bungakeningau.

Cool even wihout me. ;)

Mr 2015, please surprise me. ;-)

Why shout?

Ba kamu dingar dulu ni ..

A Hindu Saint said,
( 'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance. What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small...'The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.' )

Ba dingar suda leslie? mendingar ba! hmm